No Ordinary Home, Chapter Two
Since we’re dealing with a holiday weekend, I wanted to get this posted today, so that should any of you plan on being gone on Monday – you can feel free to comment “early.”
Overview: “Whatever Happened to Me?”
“I sat in front of the mirror today and wondered what happened. Obviously, three children in three years, but a lot more than that must have happened. I don’t look like myself at all.”
“I think my whole life has changed beyond recognition.”
“My first five years with children were the hardest on my self-esteem. I had valued my job, my church and my marriage so highly that the things I did defined me.”
“I just had trouble equating the day-in and day-out mundane chores of housekeeping and child raising with that mystical and holy thing called mothering.”
“Jacob’s Ladder – that ladder is a sign of my wrestling with God, of my desire to be named and to know what work He has for me to do.”
“There is nothing I can do. Nothing. I am His workmanship. Even the good works I am to do were prepared for me ahead of time. I am justified through faith in His redemptive work. No job, no career, no success, no amount of financial reward – nothing will ever earn me His love and approval.
“Being vs Doing. God’s only concern was and is what I am being – a child of His, forgiven, justified by the work of His Son, His heir. “
“It was finally clear. It was His name that I craved, not a definition of roles. A realization of a name. A holy name.”
Mrs Brazo’s questions:
Look up the following passages: John 1:12-13; John 3:18; Psalm 139:13; Psalm 139:14; Psalm 139:16; Romans 8:16-17; Colossians 1:13; Ephesians 2:8-10; 2 Corinthians 5:17; Romans 12:1; 2 Corinthians 5:21.
1) Which two do you find hardest to believe? Memorize them. (Share them, if you can)
2) List 3 changes you would make if you really believed these Scriptures.
Ladies, I have to confess, I’m nigh on crying right now, as I type. The tears are clogged in my throat – if someone were to come speak to me, I’d have to just…sign to them, I guess. When I read this, I remember my own struggle to find who I was in Christ, yes. But, most of all, I think of all the ladies that I have spoken to/read who do not have a grasp of this.
Time and time again, I’ve come face to face with young women who see their entire value wrapped up in what they do. “I do this for God…” “I am that…” “I…I…I…” It’s always about “me.” When I re-read Mrs Brazo’s words: “It was finally clear. It was His name that I craved, not a definition of roles. A realization of a name. A holy name.” How I wish I could communicate this to the many young women I find wrestling with this issue. How I wish I had known this when I was in the middle of wrestling with this issue!
Just recently I was party to a young woman communicating her need to be about the business of the Kingdom. She felt that her at-home involvement with her children was not only unfulfilling, but also keeping her from truly showing her love for the Lord and her desire to serve Him. I wanted to remind her that she was already serving Him.
I wanted to remind her that what she has done for the least of these, she has done for Him. Every nose we wipe, every story we read again and again, every single thing we do for our children, we offer up to the Lord as an act of worship.
Let’s be honest, there is no one who is coming along, giving us pats on the back and brownie points for being a good mom. Our glory – our reward for this is long coming. Yes, there are moments – when the grumpy little face on my lap turns her head and purposefully reaches up to kiss my cheek – when my daughter thanks me for being her friend – those moments, they are a reward.
BUT they aren’t THE reward – those will be the jewels in our crowns. We will know them well, when our Lord steps out of the crowd of those surrounding the Throne of our Father – and He touches our cheeks and He looks in our eyes and He says, “Come, you who are blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. When I was frightened, you comforted Me. When I was sad, you encouraged Me. When I was alone, you sat with Me. When no one else would be on My side, you were there. You always chose Me for your team.”
Why then, when we have such a “retirement party” awaiting us – why do I … why do we faunch and wrestle with what we DO? How is it so easy to forget that the things we are called to were appointed to us before time? Do we think that the Lord who saw fit to appoint these things to us BEFORE TIME, would allow them to go unfulfilled? Is our understanding of our Lord’s ability so limited that we can not see that He makes all things complete….but in His time? Oh that we could all keep our eyes on the end and not the muddle, here in the middle. (You like how I make it a “we” instead of a “me” issue?)
Dear Sisters, I’m sorry for rambling so long – may the Lord graciously give us all eyes to see and ears to hear – that we might be aware of Him in our daily lives – that we might see Him in the faces of the very ones we are called to serve.