NOT (snort) MY (mine,mine,mine!) WILL (stiff-necked, demanding, “I want my own way” will)
I sat down to write about “The Five Love Languages,” this morning. I just KNEW that is what I wanted to share with you. (Especially since I’ve been on and on about dishonoring speech, I wanted to remind myself – and you – about honoring speech) But, I have attempted to put that blog together 4 times and each time it has been boring (more so than normal) F.L.A.T. and without life. So, 4 times I have deleted it and started again. This is my 5th attempt….
and it will NOT be about The Five Love Languages, at all. 🙂
Each time I was writing, my mind was wandering to last night. So, instead, you have to hear about that. 🙂 (You may submit all complaints to our Customer Service Dept.)
Last night, we had a very tight, but do-able schedule. We had 2 business meetings, a trip to the Post Office to send out a bunch of ebay auctions and a time to join Kristine and her husband for coffee at Starbucks, followed by our weekly pick up of bread. It started falling behind when Jeff got home early.
Now, this might not seem like it would be a detriment, but that is only to normal people, something we Clarks simply don’t qualify as. Daughter #1 was supposed to go to the Post Office with her Dad to ship something to a friend, so she started racing around to get things ready when he got home early. Naturally, the more frantic she became the more things fell apart at the seams. The more she got involved with getting things ready to ship, the more Dad felt he had time to start on a new project. Are you seeing the snowball here?
Suffice it to say, we left home 10 min later than we should have which made us 12 min late for the first appointment. (I have no clue how we gained 2 min) The people we were meeting with were running 30 min behind, so the meeting was now 45 min later than scheduled. (We have now grown from snowball to small avalanche.) This meant we hit the traffic to cross town later than anticipated, making us nigh on 1 hour late for our next appointment. (Thankfully they were flexible enough to allow that.) This in turn meant we would be AT LEAST an hour late to meet with Kristine and her hubby.
When we arrived at our appointment, they too were running behind and Jeff simply looked at me and said, “You need to call and cancel with Kristine, because this will be at least 2 hrs before we can get out of here.” With complete and total gentleness of heart and submission, I did just that. (WHAT ROT! I stomped to a place where I could call her and I was fussing and fuming and snorting about doing so. We now moved from small avalanche to major bury-the-town-in-snow type avalanche.)
As expected, we were finally “free” over 2 hours later than we had anticipated. Now what? We still had bread to pick up in just over an hour and there was no point in driving 25 min home, only to turn around and drive back 15 min after arriving home. 🙄
Jeff, being the more mature of the two of us (it was his turn last night) stopped and asked the Lord what He would have us do with our time. The only thing that came to mind was run to Lowes and look for something we needed for the house and stop at a local grocery to get a cup of Starbucks. (FINALLY, an idea I could agree with!) 😀
As we walked into Lowes, I was still snorting – in my heart, if not “out loud.” While we were walking through Lowes, suddenly, there appeared a dear friend of ours who had been rumored to have DIED!!! Please understand, this friend had moved from our area, with a promise to keep in touch once he had settled elsewhere. Not too long after that he was rumored to have died. (To add further delight, we had just been talking about this man this past weekend and talking about how much we missed him and would like to see/speak to him again.)
What a joy and a delight to see him!!! After hugging and squealing, we were able to spend some time talking to him and catching up with all that his life had held since we last spoke. He apologized for not being in touch, but felt that the things he had left behind in our town were simply too much to be endured, which a visit would require. We assured him all was forgiven and we made arrangements to meet with him again. As we left he said, “I’m so glad to see you again. This was the best thing to happen in DAYS!”
From this surprise meeting, we went on to the store – only to arrive just before they needed to close. They offered us coffee at quite a discount, since it was going to be thrown out anyway and blessed us with a smashed piece of white chocolate raspberry cheesecake. In addition to that, one of the baristas that we have developed a relationship with over the past few years, asked where our children were and begged to come babysit…”for free, just let me come play with your kids”…some time soon. As we left she said, “I’m SO glad you came in tonight, I was needing some friendly faces and you guys are JUST what I needed.”
We got in the van…all I could do was repent. “Oh Lord, YOU had a plan for our evening that would NEVER have occurred to me. If any of the details of tonight had played out the way I wanted them to, we would not have been in the places that YOU wanted us to be in. Forgive me for my temper tantrum and Lord? Please don’t stop using me. I want to be Your tool. I want to be used by You….in spite of myself.”
Dear ones, PLEASE allow me to encourage you that Father’s plans for our days are perfectly designed. And may I encourage you to be wiser than I? When all your well-made plans are coming tumbling down….please pause and ask what your response is to be. Don’t waste your precious time snorting, fussing and storming (throat clearing) only dopes do that. 😉
Oh – and get this – we never got the stuff we needed from Lowes. (We forgot all about it) We’ll have to plan another trip there. Makes me wonder who we’ll run into then. Either way I sure hope it means another cup of Starbucks. 😀